Soon enough there was a tap on my shoulder. It was Elektra, sliding onto the stool that Jesus had vacated. She was smiling, young and alive.

“What were you thinking about, deep thinker?”

Should I tell her? That Jesus had been keeping her seat warm? No. I didn’t want to scare her.

“Oh, nothing,” I said.

“Should we order more beers?” she asked. My mug was empty, hers was almost. Now normally I’m always ready for more beer. Call it the German in me. Or call it the dissatisfaction with my life in me.

“Y’know what?” I said, “let’s take off.”

“Ooh, a take-charge guy.”

“That’s me,” I said.

In the summer of 1945, after we had won the war, they put me in charge of several hundred German prisoners, repairing bombed-out rail yards. I was only a twenty-four-year old buck sergeant, but I spoke enough German to give orders, so I was given this job. The German prisoners were all starving, and usually they had to sleep out in the open in their filthy uniforms. Every few days or so one or two of them would die, and there was nothing I could do about it except try to keep their work to a minimum without winding up in the stockade myself for disobeying orders. In September they finally sent me home and I was discharged from the army. I went back to work at the railroad as a brakeman. Occasionally through the years I would be offered a promotion, but I always said no.

As we walked over to her place I guess I was thinking about the war, so I said, “Hey, Elektra, I’m sorry about what my people did to your people.

She stopped.

“But you’re American, Arnold.”

“I know. But I’m German. I mean both my parents were from Germany.”

“The six million Jews weren’t your fault. And besides, you fought in the war, right?”

“No, I never fought. I was an engineer in the army.”

“It’s the same thing. You were on the right side.”

I thought of those starving German prisoners, and of the cities I had seen that had been bombed into rubble.

“Well, I was on the better side,” I said.

She looked at me. We were standing near the corner of Washington and Jackson, the street was fairly quiet now. That delicious night-time ocean breeze rustled through the trees, and Elektra moved her body up against mine. She smelled like butterscotch and her skin in the light of the street lamp was that color too.

“What’s up, so serious?”

“Well,” I said, “while you were in the ladies’ room I saw him again.”

“Jesus.”

“Yeah,” I said. “He sat in your seat. I didn’t want to tell you,
but –”

“Because I’m a Jew you had to tell me?”

“Well, I just wanted you to know.”

“What was he like this time?”

“Very annoying,” I said.

“In his robes still?”

“No. He had a polo shirt on. Bermudas. And his hair was short this time.”

“Still smoking Pall Malls?”

“Come to think of it, I don’t think he lit one up this time. But I’m sure he had them on him.”

“Arnold, you know you’re wearing a polo shirt and bermudas, don’t you?”

“That’s true,” I said.

“Darling, you’re just imagining him. You know that, don’t you?”

“Well, I’m sure that’s the case, but you see, my knowing that doesn’t make it any less — disconcerting for me. I’m afraid I might go completely round the bend again.”

I have to mention here that despite the supposed seriousness of the conversation I was in the process of getting an erection, and of course Elektra was aware of this, as she was causing it by holding herself close to me.

“It seems to me one part of you is healthy,” she said.

“Oh. Yeah,” I said, as usual the very soul of wit.

“So do you want to come up to my room for a while?”

“All right,” I said. “But only for a while. If I’m not back in my attic before morning my mother will have a heart attack.”

“I don’t think she will. I think she’s one tough cookie.”

“She is. But she worries about me. Since my breakdown. She worries I’ll — hurt myself.”

“Did you ever try to hurt yourself?”

“When I was in the mental hospital apparently I did, but I don’t recall any of it.”

“She’s gonna have to let you go, Arnold. She wants to let you go.”

“I know. But I should still go home after a while, just so she won’t worry.”

“Okay, so come on already,” she said, and she put her arm in mine.

Once again I had to walk slowly because of my awkward erection. Despite my misgivings it seemed to be pulling me along somehow.

As we headed up Jackson Street to her house I saw him standing in the darkness of an elm tree farther up the block. He was pretending to stop so he could light a cigarette, but he was obviously observing us with a lowered and sideways gaze. I could see his face clearly as he lit his cigarette with his Ronson.

As we walked slowly arm in arm I leant my head a little towards hers and whispered, “Do you see that guy up there, with the cigarette.”

“Sure,” she whispered back. “What about him?”

“That’s him,” I said.

“Arnold,” she said, “that’s just some guy. I’ve seen him around town.”

“Well, then why does he pretend he’s Jesus?” I asked.

“Oh, Christ,” she said. She pulled her arm free and started walking quickly up the block toward him.

Great.

I continued walking also, but slowly. I didn’t know what else to do.

I’ve neglected to say how she was dressed. She wore a soft blue dress that was cinched with a belt at the waist. She was quite beautiful to watch from behind, walking up that sidewalk with her determined stride. Oh, she had a shoulder bag also, made of some sort of cloth. I wondered what she kept in it?

I stopped outside her shop, but she continued on up after the guy, who had started walking up Jackson Street after lighting his cigarette.

She caught up with him, and then I felt so abashed that I turned my eyes away.

I lit a Pall Mall of my own, and waited, looking in the dark shop window. There was nothing to look at, as they put the wares away at night.

A minute or so later she came back. I turned and looked at her.

“Well?” I said.

“His name’s Steve,” she said. “Steve Jones. He’s not even Jewish.”